Before I get to my smoothie recipe I wanted to talk about a couple of things!

First: Thank you thank you thank you to all of my little bunnies who ordered shirts and “Eat More Rabbit Food” merch! I can’t even tell you how thankful and humbled I am by your support! I’m also so happy that you guys love rabbit food as much as I do : ).

Second: Sorry for being a little MIA on the blog! Once I list merch in my online shop, it turned in to utter madness (and happiness)! I get so excited when I see your orders come in and want to get them packed up and shipped as fast as I can so you can wear your new goodies, but then I totally stress myself out thinking I’m superwoman lol. But guess what, everyone’s orders (up to today at 2pm) have been shipped! WOOO!! It’s just me myself and I running my blog, email, Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, and Pinterest, so when I add shirts into the mix, I literally go crazy. Today, I ate an entire bag of goldfish while I packed orders and laughed when I realized the bag was empty. Im stress eating like crazy this week! I’m also working on a huge freelance graphic design project right now, so I have a feeling I will be buying another bag of goldfish this week.. haha. These are things I used to beat myself up about, but now, I know that I’m stressed, I’m eating because I’m stressed, I’m going to get my workout on later tonight, everything will be ok, and life goes on! I’m glad to have a much healthier perspective on food now vs a couple of years ago… which leads me to my next subject!

Since this week is National Eating Disorder Awareness Week, and I wanted to post a different kind of Transformation Tuesday. I didn’t just want to post this, I NEEDED to post this. If you guys have been following me for a while, you’ve probably read my weight loss story, but today, I wanted to talk about my recovery/weight gain story!

Before and After RecoveryYou may have noticed that I don’t really talk about weight very much. I am totally open to talking about my before (heaviest) and after (lowest) weights. I can tell you that in the photo on the left, I was at my worst in my eating disorder and I weighed around 100 lbs. But now… I don’t care what I weigh. Yes, I weigh myself on occasion to make sure I’m in a normal range for my body, and am not getting crazy with the bags of goldfish (haha), but for the most part my jeans and bra are a good indicator of how I’m doing. I will notice if I go to Sprinkles Ice Cream too many days in a row that my bra is feeling a litttttlllleee snug so I replace the Sprinkles Ice Cream with banana nice cream that I make in my Yonanas. It’s taken me a LONG time and a lot of hard work to get to this place where I don’t beat myself up over certain things, and can happily allow myself things like goldfish and ice cream, but it has been 100% worth it.

During my weight loss journey, I became obsessed with losing weight. I loved when people would call me “tiny” and “skinny” and was driven by people who thought that I was too thin. In my ED mindset, the thinner the better. But did it equal happiness? No, not at all. I was extremely depressed, miserable, always hungry, in pain, and my brain was foggy because I wasn’t nourishing my body with enough calories. At my lowest weight of about 100 lbs, I was never small enough. At this point I was terrified of most foods (even fruit, wtf), I had alienated myself from all of my friends, and never had any energy. At one point I didn’t think I was thin enough or worthy enough to live. That’s when I has a huge meltdown that saved my life. I started therapy and working with a nutritionist to become happy and healthy again, which was the best decision I’ve ever made. Was it easy? No. Was it fun? Not really. But was it worth it? Yes. During my recovery I realized what it was like to live again and eat freely without caring. Instead of working out to burn what I ate, now I workout because it’s fun and I love the friends that I’ve made at spin. I eat healthy because I love the way it makes me feel. It scares me when I look back at old photos when I was too small and thought I was “fat.” It’s terrifying how frail I was. I’m so happy to be where I am today! I have so much more muscle and love my strong legs and hiney compared to what I looked like during my ED. Starving & overexercising will not make you happy, no matter how much you think it will. Say yes to healthy eating, sexy muscles, and happiness! I hope that by sharing my story, I can inspire just one person to choose recovery and a healthy lifestyle!

Now that the serious part is done, onto the recipe! Today’s recipe is one of my best friend’s favorites! I can’t eat berries (worst allergy ever… boo), so I make this for my sister and her fiancΓ© to enjoy while I stick with my Tropical Green Smoothie!

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Antioxidant Smothie
Serves 1

1 frozen banana
1/2 cup unsweetened almond milk
1/2 cup blueberries
1/2 cup strawberries
huge handful of spinach

Blend until smooth.

I promise I will have recipes other than smoothies this week!
xo

13 Comments on Antioxidant Smoothie

  1. jess
    February 25, 2014 at 5:10 pm (3 years ago)

    Hey Catherine.
    I have loved reading your posts for the last couple of years (seriously upset when you went MIA :() ive been suffering with ED for the last 3 years, I dont super restrict my cals anymore but if you listen to my Dr’s im still supposedly 6-7kg underweight. I dont understand though, I exercise (not quite as much as I did when I first got caught up in this. I used to do a lot more cardio now I do weight training)
    When you started gaining, did you cut exercise, did you eat a LOT of food ? How did your body adapt to it, did you gain a lot of fat at first ):? This is what im so worried about gaining ! Because I get told I look good now (I used to be a bit too heavy) cause im thin and toned. I like the way I look now. Except that ive lost so much hair, I was lucky it was really thick to start off with. I havent had my period for 3 years either which in my head I dont really care about. I stand like all day every day except for 2 or 3 hours at night and maybe 2 hours in the morning every second day, because I feel fat when im sitting and that everything is just becoming flabby ): I do eat a lot of fats like avocado, almonds and other nuts and seeds , coconut and coconut oil but I eat the majority of my calories before bed, which I do hate doing cos I feel really bloated and full but in a way I kind of like eating at night its kind of a habit now :/

    I’ve lost all my friends and my relationship with my parents is horrible atm . . .

    Please help me. What did you do when you were gaining and how did you cope with it πŸ™ ? Did you cut ALL exercise ? Did you eat shit loads of calories πŸ™

    Please, im really sorry for the realllllllly long post. Its just really comforting to know that someone else has been through the same thing xxo

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  2. Anita
    February 25, 2014 at 11:41 pm (3 years ago)

    Thank you for sharing your story! It does help others!

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  3. chrissy grace
    February 26, 2014 at 12:38 am (3 years ago)

    hey! i just found your blog – amazing post and i love that smoothie idea! i think I’m going to try it out before my yoga class tomorrow night πŸ™‚ xxx

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  4. Elena
    February 26, 2014 at 5:25 am (3 years ago)

    Catherine, this was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your amazing story. It is so inspiring to see women who are confident in who God made them. You are such a strong, beautiful lady… God bless you in your journey – it’s one that never truly ends.

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  5. Jessica
    February 26, 2014 at 6:10 am (3 years ago)

    I love this post! So happy you’re doing better and are now helping others.
    I’m also trying the tropical smoothie today ☺️ Yummmm

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  6. D @ The Kosher Cave Girl
    February 26, 2014 at 7:46 am (3 years ago)

    Thank you for sharing your story! As someone who has also recovered from an eating disorder, let me tell you: you are such an inspiration to others. Keep it up!

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  7. Laura
    February 26, 2014 at 10:26 am (3 years ago)

    I admire your bravery. Thanks for posting this. You are so beautiful. I think your second picture shows that not only are you gorgeous but you are confident. And that confidence makes you shine!

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  8. Sandi
    February 26, 2014 at 2:01 pm (3 years ago)

    Thanks for sharing your story, you’re an inspiration. And dude if I lived close to Sprinkles Ice Cream I’d find it hard not to go once a week!! Don’t know how you do it πŸ˜‰

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  9. Natasha
    February 27, 2014 at 3:45 am (3 years ago)

    I love this post!!! I can totally identify with your story. Sometimes, we take it too far, but getting out of that place is so difficult!!

    It is sad, in hindsight, to think of how afraid I was to skip workouts, eat more, etc. Living a stress free life regarding that is way better. And a little extra cushion never hurt anyone :)!!

    Plus having no social life at all was awful! I definitely isolated myself as well, and thank goodness my friends never abandoned me, and that makes me so grateful!

    Again, this is a fantastic post and you look fabulous πŸ™‚

    Have a great day!

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  10. Lindsey
    February 27, 2014 at 11:00 am (3 years ago)

    Thank you so much for sharing this, Catherine. As someone who has struggled with my weight in a similar fashion for as long as I can remember, I truly appreciate the courage you have not only to come out on the “other side” of this challenge as a healthy and beautiful person, but as importantly, to share your story with others.

    Like you mentioned, I let the number on the scale rule me for years-it defined my good days and my bad, though I shared a similar mindset that even on the “good” weight days, the number would never be low enough. My lowest weight was also right around 100 lbs, and I was down to eating a pack of poptarts and a slim fast drink per day. I was miserable and tired and terrified of eating anything else. More than that, I was truly unhealthy. It’s taken years, but I’m finally on a positive track with my diet and exercise, healthy but not literally killing myself with my efforts.

    When I moved out of my mom’s house a year ago, I made a point of not purchasing a scale, and for my own situation at least, this has been the best decision I’ve made. I limit weigh-ins to every once in a while at the gym or the doctor’s office to make sure that I’m in a healthy range, but like you, I keep track of my ups and downs in other ways.

    It will probably always be a challenge, and I can’t say that I don’t have my downsides, but I feel so much better than I ever have, and I am so happy that you are as well. Your story is beautiful, and you are such an inspiration–thank you for continuing to be a positive voice for others facing these obstacles!

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  11. Andy
    March 3, 2014 at 2:31 am (3 years ago)

    Great post! Thank you for sharing! I am obsessed with smoothies, Wrote down the recipe, will try to make it tomorrow.

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  12. Ruby
    March 3, 2014 at 7:27 am (3 years ago)

    I love your blog and have loved reading your story. You really inspired me to start my weight loss journey in a healthy way. Ive officially reached the 20 pound mark (lost…lol).
    I so appreciate you posting this and think its so well written. I love your blog and am buying my first piece of merch today! Keep on writing! You are amazing.

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  13. Unknown
    October 29, 2014 at 10:20 am (3 years ago)

    I was just wondering if you use this smoothie as a breakfast replacement?

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